Friday, June 25, 2010

482 Nights

It was bound to happen. Something that could not, nor should not, have been avoided. The inevitable has happened, and yet I still somehow feel off-guard.

My little man has been alive for exactly 508 days. Aside from the 26 nights he spent in the NICU, I have put him to sleep every night and been there when he woke up every morning. That's exactly 482 good-night kisses, 482 bed time prayers, 482 sleepy snuggles, and 482 bright morning wake-ups. All of that, however, is about to change.

Tomorrow, I am flying up to Portland for an amazing honor. Several years ago, I was asked by my dear friend Amy to be her son's Godmother. It was so wonderful to stand up and witness Owen's baptism in the same church that she and I grew up in. I was, once again, asked to be Godmother to her daughter Grace. I am so excited to spend some quality time with them, finally see their home, attend their church, and witness the baptism of their amazing little girl. All that being said, I am SO sad that I will be missing one night with both of my guys.

I know Kc will do an awesome job as a "single Dad" and Noah probably won't even recognize that I'm gone. I know that one night spent away from my family is not a bad thing. In fact, it might even be a good thing...refreshing my spirit and re-energizing my soul. I know that when I am picked up from the airport, there will be hugs and kisses aplenty. All this I know...yet why is my heart so heavy?!?

4 comments:

  1. This I completely understand... I need a break every once in a while, yet something about missing that sweet, snuggly bedtime with them makes me sad.
    However, you are right about Daddy being fine on his own. We are lucky in that we have great Daddy's for our boys for those times when we aren't there.
    Enjoy your time in Portland (I'm just across the river in Vancouver!)We are finally having good weather!
    :)

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  2. Bless your sweet heart. Noah is one lucky dude to have you as his Mama. Love you.

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  3. Be strong it will be over before you know it! Katy mc

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  4. ahhhh...a mother's love, how very deep it runs :) Enjoy your short time away...just think it will be the first xoxo's you get from being away!! Now that's something to look forward to...how will they be...bigger hugs, sloppier kisses...bigger smiles??? Keep us posted :) try to relax and have fun

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