Sixty Months

My Little Man is five years old today.  I simply cannot believe it!  Five years!  He has come so far and I am so very proud of everything he has accomplished.  He is funny, smart, sensitive, silly, and thoroughly in love with Angry Birds and Star Wars.  

Noah's current stats are:

Weight: 43 pounds

Height: 42 inches

 

I cannot wait to see what this next year brings!

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas from our family to yours.

It's A Girl

It's A Girl!

Thank you all so much for your kind words and prayers.  We have felt so surrounded by love and faith.

We had some early DNA testing done on our little peanut last week.  They are not able to detect Fraser Syndrome {it's too rare} but are able to look for several known birth defects {including Down Syndrome and Trisomy 18}.  We are so thankful that our results came back normal.  Because the testing looks at chromosomes, we were able to learn the sex of our little peanut. 

Noah is quite thrilled to have a little sister.  Early on, he declared that he wanted a brother and that the brother's name would be Noah2.  A week or so later, however, he changed his mind and decided that he needed a sister and refused to believe it was anything different.  Too funny!

Noah's got some BIG news

Noah's got some exciting news...

Yep...that's right...we're expecting Baby #3 in May!

We couldn't be more excited...or scared!

Dear Ryan,

Dear Ryan,

Happy Birthday Sweet Baby Boy!  Although you would be six years old today, you will always be my baby boy...my little one...my first born.

As the years pass since loosing you, I must admit that the pain I feel, while still real and raw, is no longer constant, but rather an ebb and flow throughout the days.  Reminders of you are all around us, whether in actual items, friends going through similar losses, or Noah innocently talking about his "big brother Ryan".  I think and wonder about what you would be like.  How our life would have been different with you in it. 

I long to hold you in my arms, feel the weight of you on my body, and smell your sweet aroma.  I love you, baby boy.  Happy Birthday!

Love,

Mama