Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas from The Jacksons!

Heartbreaking

Sorry for the lack of blogging lately, but, if you follow us on Facebook, you already know a bit of the reason why.

Shortly before Thanksgiving, Kc and I were thrilled to find out that we were pregnant...again.  We could not believe that God had blessed us with our third child. 

At our six week ultrasound we were able to see our precious little baby and watch their tiny little heart flutter away.  It was beating at a very strong one hundred fourteen beats per minutes.  What a miracle! 

Because of some very early chromosomal testing, we knew that our Little One was very healthy...and that our Little One did not have Fraser Syndrome...and that our Little One was a girl.  We were beyond ecstatic!

On Monday, we were scheduled four our nine week ultrasound.  We were instantly amazed at how much she had grown in just a few short weeks.  We were quickly devastated, however, when the doctor could not find her heartbeat.  She searched and searched and searched, and yet nothing.  The heart that should have been beating at one hundred fifty beats per minute was mysteriously silent.

The drive home from the doctor's office was agonizing.  All the memories and feelings of our final ultrasound with Ryan came flooding back.  Knowing the exact moment when your heart literally breaks inside your chest is perhaps one of the most painful things we have had to go through...again.

Today, Kc and I are celebrating our fifth wedding anniversary.

Can you believe it?!?
Five years?!?
Wow, five years?!?
Only five years!?!

We seem to have gone through so much in the past five years.

Shortly after we lost Ryan, a friend told me that everything you go through as a couple will either bring you closer together or drive you further apart.  No marriage is ever stagnant, she told me, it is always moving...it is our jobs to decide in which direction it is moving.

Well...I cannot imaging walking this road without my Amazing Husband.  He is my rock, confidant, partner, joy, lover, and best friend.  The joys and sorrows of these past five years have truly drawn us closer to each other, as well as to our God.  And while our hearts are broken, they are broken together.

I love you Babe!
Happy Anniversary!

Zoo Lights

This Christmas season has been so much fun with our Little Man.  He is starting to enjoy all the decorations and traditions that go along with it.  He loves the lights, Christmas Trees, Santa, Baby Jesus, Nativities, Elves, etc.  

Last weekend we went to Zoo Lights at our zoo.  They went ALL OUT and had so many twinkling lights and decorations that all the overhead lights were turned off at night.  Bubs loved to point out all the animals in lights.

He even got a kick out of The Grinch.

So many of the lights were down low and Noah couldn't resist trying to figure them out.

There were even beautiful snowflakes way up high.  We had to stop and take a closer look.

By far, the highlight of the evening was a visit to Santa.  While in line, we talked all about how Mr. Man was going to sit on Santa's lap and he seemed to be OK with that...perhaps even a bit excited.  Once I sat him on the lap of Father Christmas, however, Noah was not as pleased.

 

He did sit long enough for Kc to snap a few pictures and Santa to give him a candy cane.  The rest of the evening, Bubs kept telling us about the time when he "sit on Santa".  He was so proud of himself!  To this day, every time he sees a Santa picture or figure, he says "sit on Santa" with a GIGANTIC smile.  Too cute!

Wrapping Paper - Year Three

It's that time of year again...wrapping paper time!  Every year, I enlist the help of my most willing son to create cheap and easy wrapping paper.  You might remember when Bubs jumped all over the paper two years ago.  Last year he ran the wheels of his trucks through red and green paint {unfortunately no pictures...we were in and out of the hospital at the time}.  This year I took a few sponges from The Dollar Tree {just love that place} and cut them into tall triangles.

 Then Mr. Man had a ball dipping them in white paint and stamping them on red paper.

Peek!  What's under there?

One more tree.

This is SO MUCH FUN!

 Bubs got a little bit zealous in his painting and made some "snow" falling onto the trees.

 BANG!

 Painting sure does make your hands sticky.

The final products...

 BEAUTIFUL!

It's Beginning To Look A Lot Like...

Christmas!

It's the Most Wonderful Time of the Year!!!

I ABSOLUTELY LOVE this time of year!  The lights, the sparkle, the hot cocoa, the blessings, the ornaments, the tradition, the history, the baby...what's not to love?!?

We decorated our tree last night and Bubs loved it!

He got a kick out of pulling the ornaments out of the boxes and "hanging" them on the tree {it was more like pushing them into the tree}.

Noah called this one a "star fish".  Of course he did!  Everything, and I do mean everything, has to do with the ocean these days.

Lion!

I was showing Bubs an ornament that I made when I was a little girl.  

Santa!

What's inside this stocking?

If I just push harder, this ornament will stick on the tree!

Jingle bells, jingle bells, jingle all the way.

I can see my reflection in the silver.

I look forward to making memories with my Little Man this year and teaching him about the glorious birth of our savior.